What type of psychosis am I?

Don't listen to that jerk above me- I have no idea what county you live in, but it sounds like you need to talk to a professional about this. Don't leave all this anger bottled up inside, it's dangerous to do that. As for shock therapy, I'm not even sure if that's still legal anymore. Google your county with keywords like "psychiatrist" or "therapist". I'm not a doctor, and I'm sorry that I couldn't have been of much help to you. Good luck.