Am I going to turn into a crazy sociopath or what?

I use to feel the same way, but not as badly just relax some people go their entire life and have no good friends. Just relax, be yourself, and chill, for some reason people, especially girls don't respond when you don't give them a lot of attention. The more you think about it, the more you will think how much worst it is and eventually you will believe that it is far far worst then it actually is. Just chill, what will suicide solve why don't you try to be a little more of a fun person and try to make other people smile, maybe bring other people happiness will bring you happiness